Three textures (bokeh, moon, and geometric) from Design Cuts
It's an odd title for this post, but it's what I am trying to do with the changes outside my control happening right now. Every unexpected turn of events is a teachable moment if I relinquish my need to control. I may have damaged a friendship beyond repair by my desire to "fix" what probably wasn't broken. I have cried buckets of tears, but in the end, it is out of my control. I have apologized, and that is all I can do. I really do want to "live at peace with everyone", but my humanness still wants to be in charge. This is generally counterproductive, and I make a greater mess than the one I was attempting to reconcile. And today, I have done all I can do. The rest is out of my hands. There are other changes, again, nothing I can do anything about, and mostly minor, but still unexpected.
Job had to let go in a big way when God allowed him to lose everything in a few days time. Job never saw it coming, nor did he do anything to precipitate the disaster. It was Satan playing games with his mind and his faith. And he handled the devastation pretty well until his "friends" tried explaining why it all happened to him. Then, Job succumbed to the human need to know why and to control the outcome, even to saying he wished he had never been born. He protested the unfairness of his plight until God spoke a little reality:
Who is this that obscures my plans with words without knowledge? Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me. (Job 38:2-3, NIV)
God's questions were little things like, "Where were you when I laid the earth's foundation?" (v 4), and "Can you set up God's dominion over the earth?" (v. 33). In comparison to even the most dire circumstances man can imagine God is still greater. And HE is in control. No one else. No matter how much I think I should be able to control my circumstances, I cannot. Nor should I be able to.
David had some issues letting go, and he paid for it again and again. He lost children because of his desire to control the outcomes of his circumstances. He lost battles. And ultimately, he lost the privilege of his heart's desire: building a Temple for the Most High. He came to terms with God's mandate that Solomon build the temple to the point of telling the people who wondered about the idea, "My son Solomon, the one whom God has chosen, is young and inexperienced. The task is great, because this palatial structure is not for man, but for the LORD God" (1 Chronicles 29:1).
What a marvelous example of relinquishing control. Of letting go. Of submitting to God's decision in the wake of David's own actions. Gulp.
The Bible is full of stories of people who had to relinquish control in order to be within the will of God: Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Joseph, Moses, Hannah, Ruth, Esther (read that story if you haven't recently), David, Daniel, Mary (there's another powerful story), a group of fishermen from Capernaum, a tax collector, a Pharisee named Saul, and on and on. So who am I to think I can wrest control from the Father without repercussions?
Even if it means losing a cherished friend.
Even when only uncertainly looms on the horizon.
The LORD God has established the boundaries of the earth. It is He who set the sun, moon, and stars in their places. He is in control. I need to get out of the way and let go.